Letting Go
I want to let you go
But my heart keeps saying no
I close my eyes and feel your touch
Oh how I miss you so much
The pain gets stronger and stronger
I don't think I can take this much longer
Why is my heart set on having hope for you?
I know you don't care for me
So I've got to let you go ya see
I've got to shatter these memories in my heart
How I wish we didn't have to part
You did teach me that I can love again
And you did turn out to be more than just a friend
But it back fired in the end
I don't need your kiss or smile
I'll get through this
Although it might take awhile
I refuse to let you keep the key to my heart
So I'm taking it back and with me it will never part
If you see me on the street
Do me a favor and walk away
My heart for you died
Somewhere along the way
Can you feel my heartache?
As I sit alone in my chair
I see you
I try not to stare
but my eyes always end up fixated on you
I think to myself
can he feel me staring?
can he tell the heartache that lies within me?
most likely he doesn't
as I try my best to put a smile on my face
and hide my misery like a deep dark secret
then a vision sets my heart wayward
I see you
kissing her
my heart pounds with rage
I want to scream out but I don't
I remain silent
the pain sinks in my soul more when you utter those 3 words
I love you
but they were not said to me
they were said to another girl
and as I want to hate her
I cant
but I can, and will, dream of you
of what could have been
what should have been
I sit alone in my chair
and wish away...
Mirror mirror on the wall
Mirror mirror on the wall
why do you deceive me?
the reflection I see can't be real
I want to change completely
I try and I try to change
but the reflection remains the same
why can't you show me what I want to see?
is this all I'll ever be?
makeup, lipstick & blush
oh how I hate it so much
nothing seems to improve
and I'm not in the fucking mood
to deal with reality
I stare at my reflection and I smash the glass
they say vanity is a sin
sorry God but I gave in
to this beauty based world
they put me to the test
I'm no better then all the rest
I guess vanity won
Only time will tell
I used to hide deep in the shadows
The darkness of the night was my only companion
Loneliness was a regular feeling for me
And hope was as far as away as the stars
I get the sudden urge to open up my heart
To let my brick wall of hate down
And let someone in
I fear falling
They say try try again
But my pain overrides that saying
I've never let anyone see me before
The real me
Inside
A person full of compassion & humor & sensitivity
A person who cherishes the unwanted
Opening up is like standing on the edge of a cliff
It's terrifying, deadly, but exciting
Will I jump or will I fall?
I will only allow myself so much more pain in this life
Then I'll shut off from the world again
But I still have faith
That faith keeps me alive and breathing
How will this end?
Not in tears, not in screams, not in sadness I hope
The present time is a low point
But I dream of a high point
Where I can live...................how I miss living
So will I jump or will I fall?
Only time will tell
To whom it may concern,
The light inside me shines no more
the smile that once shown on my face no longer appears
the hope has drained from my body
and the love has weakened my heart
my soul slips away
and there is nothing left but emptiness
tears well up in my eyes and the pain pours out of me
the hatred lurks in and possess the little faith I had left
I stand here broken
and there is nothing I can do to fix it
happiness is so far away and I can't seem to reach it
the bricks build higher and higher on my shoulders
I let out a stressful sigh and there is no more air left to breathe
I have become my worst enemy
and I have the world to blame
why is this life so meaningless?
I just thought id mention it..
to whom it may concern
I Wonder
Gazing at the night sky
I wonder
where you are
if you can hear me
I feel you in the wind
I feel you all around
why does it have to be this way?
why couldn't you stay?
I want to point the finger of blame
but what would that do
memories consume my brain
I think of the many times we had together
and your soul will never be forgotten
because I carry it with me
every time I breathe, you breathe
every move and decision I make
I make with you
I wonder if you watch me
check on me to see how I'm doing
I wonder when I talk to you if you can hear me
I wonder about so many things in this life
but I will never wonder if you loved me
because your actions, words, & thoughts proved otherwise
when I look up at the sky at night
I wonder if your there...
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My name is Gina, betta known as Mizz Gina. I'm 24, a Virgo and live in PA. I'm Italian & Greek, which is safe to say the best mix there is. I just graduated from college for graphic design & animation, my all time passion in life. I have 1 dog whom I absolutely adore, Mister, and my other dog Nola recently passed away from cancer.
